It has been a bit since I wrote. I’m still carrying my baby with me everywhere, no I am not ready to put him down. I am thinking I may never be ready, but I am thinking I am ok with that. I love him so much and I miss his little life everyday. Randomly a picture or memory will surface and it either knocks me to my knees or it reminds me that he is here in all I do. He is always going to be my heartbeat.
This has been a sad few days, two young lives lost and many young lives impacted. My nephew’s half sister and her fiancé were tragically taken too soon in a car accident. While every death is hard, young lives cut short seem to be harder. It was a reminder of those I personally knew that left too soon when I was their age. I don’t think that loss ever truly heals. Life is not a promise, it is borrowed time and if we squander it away on useless things, bad people and wrong decisions and fail to share our love to our families and friends it is wasted. Don’t think you are invincible, don’t take life for granted. tomorrow is not promised to anyone.
We spend most of our lives looking back, wishing we could change this, that or the other and we forget to look forward to the change we can be, the hope we may be to someone. We fail ourselves by yearning for what might have been, what should have or could have happened. Instead we should be moving forward, even if one step at a time,, reaching out to lend a helping hand to our family, friends, and neighbors.
If you continue to look down you will miss the blessings coming, if you look back you will miss something amazing around the corner. It is ok to reminisce on memories and stir up nostalgia, but don’t focus on events from the past that affected you negatively, wishing for a different outcome. It will never come. It is in the past, the past cannot become the future. Love with all you are, move forward, give when you can, show respect in all you do and always remain humble and full of kindness. You may be someone’s only hope, their only beacon of light in a dismal world. Become the change you were meant to be.
Angel
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