Happy New Year. The year 2017 was not what I had hoped for as I never wanted my baby to leave. Dobby may not be here physically but he is with me in spirit and every memory is with me just as if it happened moments ago. For those wondering, yes his ashes (all of them) still go with me everywhere I go. He has now been to Six Flags in Ga., Carowinds, Myrtle Beach, the mountains, if I go he goes and if anyone should ever say he can’t accompany me then I will not go. In his life, he could not go much due to his health so he will go now. Call me weird or think it’s odd but for me, he is mine and he will never be forgotten or left behind.
I still have horrible days filled with extreme anxiety and when others lose their babies human or fur, my heart breaks for them in such an unexplainable way.
2018 has already proven that no one is immune to heartbreak and loss and that even as we continue to breathe, when we lose a loved one the peace and comfort seems so far beyond reach. Words of kindness pour in, even from complete strangers but our hearts still feel such emptiness and the words echo and tears fall.
I pray, for those that are currently in the raw moments of loss, a form of peace, some sense of comfort and solace can wrap around you and get you through. No loss is ever easy, but when they are your child or like your own child the loss can prove to be almost unbearable. I pray that you are uplifted and can find love surrounding you as you grieve. Don’t stop remembering and don’t stop sharing even when it hurts.
“Never Goodbye”
I watched your breath leave and your eyes close forever,
Yet somehow I know our love was one that even death cannot sever.
In the coming days, months and years I hope that I feel your presence wherever I may go
I will see you once again when it is my time this I already know
For it was never goodbye and only until I see you again,
Forever in my heart, always on my mind, until then.
ABE 01/06/2018
Guts, Grace, And Grief 